there are various stages of anger. science will tell you what they are, but i won't go there.
for me, it started off with disbelief..for about 2 years.
then the rage. the burning sense of injustice and loss, the wounded 'how could you?' and that was more akin to who I am, as it let me lash out, scream, want to shake the world with the chaos that was inside me.
now it's just a deathly silence. the kind that erodes your soul on the inside, and eats away at you. the kind where you know all that could be said has been said. maybe it is the disbelief revived, maybe it's a stunned sense of losing despite struggling so hard, maybe it's resignation or just limbo.

Jin cheezon se hum dartay thay wohi ban gaye