Someone very wise once said
'It is foolish to try and please everyone'

yes. and draining, and frustrating, and depressing.
you constantly feel as if you're carrying the weight of the world on your shoulders,
and that no matter how much you struggle and how much you smile at it and how much you sit and waste yourself away by bits and pieces, and see yourself going up in flames and smoke becuase that IS what makes them happy, you realize that this still isn't enough to please everyone. it definitely isn't enough to please yourself.
At the end of the day no matter how much you love them and how intensely you care for them, you can never make them happy if you don't make yourself happy first, and your happiness SHOULD NEVER lie in anyone else's happiness. That will fuck you up.

And oh, don't EVER try to rationalize with a depressed person. EVER.
even if you love them, even if you care immensely for them, even if you have hope that inside some part of their messed up brain they still have a single iota of rationale and concern for you, and that they will overcome their own petty self-destruction to let you go and set you free. they wont. theyll drag you down with it.

and there is Nothing you can do to help them.
-eeda

stop farida.. stop.