Sunday, March 21, 2010


 we keep running
round in circles.
Time after time,
hello, goodbye.

-Blue.
 


Everything feels old, now...decaying.. It feels like it's autumn all over again, the season of loss, and not spring, of re-birth. I feel i can't bring myself to be reborn again, reincarnation is no joke. Everything feels stale.

You and I have become collateral damage too, whether you see it or not. The same repeated lines, vows of love and goodnights, no in-betweens. I miss the silly surprises, the secret notes, the messages, the care-packages and the unexpected letters. Not this, cycle of repetition and monotony, i love you jaan and i love you too.

Caught in a spiral i feel like i'm spinning,wrapping myself again in a cloak, bandages, feet dragging loosely behind and the burden of air dragging me forward. A silly mantra, keep going keep going keep going, like an ancient dull chant the only reason i blindly surge forward. Like you said, throwing darts in the dark, no yellow brick road maps of any kind.

It is all so old, so old, so well-rehearsed and repetitive, replayed.







Give me something new to sing about, S.
-eeda

4 comments:

Chandrika Shubham said...

Very artistic blog u have! :)

M said...

"A morning shadow"

Anonymous said...

this reminded me, for some reason, of something you said to me once; 'pyar kerne walay hazar mil jaen ge..but then what?"
I missed reading your blog :) for some reason I thought you had stopped writing.

E said...

@chandrika, thank u for ur compliment. :)

@medha. i was mystified by what u meant, until i read your latest, which by the way, was superbly written as always. thank for stopping by :)

@marina.
psht, dekha? waqt nay bhula deya na.
did i say that to u? hmm, i forget. its making me think now, abt things :)
awh, i missed seeing u around here... i did disappear for a while bt ive been writing on and off again. make no mistake tho, ur blog gets all my respects at every update, even if i dont comment. :) missed u mario, talk soon?