weird coincidences lately.

i see the trailer for coco after chanel and then a chanel poster pops up on facebook somehow under a friend's profile and then i am in candice's room looking at a poster of john lennon on the wall it has the lyrics to imagine and then goldie puts up imagine in a different languages on facebook and yes its a mircale everything is so coincidental.

the restlessness stems from some corner within my stomach behind the navel like a rusty anchor pulling upwards through my open mouth pushing its way to the ground the gag reflex is counteracted by peace the feeling of being grounded or is this transitionary too? i feel like vomiting ants maybe if i scratched arms and fingers and every tingling surface of my skin i could rid myself of this is kinda like how you get when you forget something and can't remember it or like a word on the tip of your tongue but not in your mouth lost in chaos is how i feel.

just call me again please i need to hear your voice to find the calm so i can finally sleep after countless hours i have lost track of waking eyes and a screaming mind.