i told rima and armie already whut had happened abt patrick, but was too angry and hurt to put down our emails on blog yet....well all the hurt is gone, so now i cn post em, sandy ths ones especialli for u cuz u didn knw whtu realli went on, bt stood by me anyway,,,,
after i had read patricks email , i was too furious too reply,,on monday when he ignored me, i was hurt and upset,,so i came home..argued with miself, and said, for the first time in mi life,,im gna stand up for miself and tell him, u knw, u cant jus use me and walk away.....soooo i emailed him, ths is whut i wrote...
hey nhan,
advice,,,,,,,,theres too much hurt in ths email, u shud prolli delete it......i jus had to let u knw how i felt even if u never read it.......... i wish u wudn have completli written me off like that.....if u wanted to end this, u shudve jus said so.,,we cud still b friends... i went to metrotown alone today to buy mi shoes..i missed u so much on the way ther and back,,,,,,,,and in tutorial today too,,in class.....at lunch wen i made a mess eating mi donair .....again..... u didnt even have time today to ask me how mi weekend was? did u wnna get away frm me tht bad? after all those times i used to stay up at night listenin abt ur problems..bt ill tell u neway, i had a crappy weekend okay, because of ur email........ i cried, ur the onli guy ive ever ever cried for, bcuz i dnt see whut i did rong here...... i told u i dnt trust ppl easily, and dnt wnna get used, and guys just wanna use gurls.and u said no.....and the way i see it, thts whut u did too...i trusted tht even if u wanted to move away frm me, ud b nice abt it and say ur sorry and atleast bother to explain face to face...10 minutes is all it takes.........2 lines in an email is all i get aftr all thse times we went out...... i wish u didn start ths thng at all....u made me like u, and now ur making me hate u. and i missed u so much even tho i knw ull never choose me ovr ur gf... i knw nuthing gud is gna come out of ths email.except for me prolli feelin jus a lil better........so i dunno why im bothering to complain at all,i promised miself i wudnt..u told me u didn like gurls who complained just because u didn hav time for them, and i promised u id never b like that and that id understand....... but i DNT understand this...will u Always hav work? whut abt the times wen ur free? did u mean to say gudbye for good? is it complelti 100% over? r u a stranger to me again? mi horoscope told me not to let sumone walk all over me.........to stand up for miself if i was realli realli hurt. and yh to be nice to jerks too.........so thts wut im doin fr the v first time in mi life.......i wish i din hav to tell u all this, because i knw ur goin thru a tough time, i dont wnna mess u up but nhan, u realli hurt me...............i cnt beleive im abt to cry again..........ufff, neways, i cnt explain why i wrote ths..its mean and hurt ful bt i had to tell u ......... no, im NOT okay with us jus finishing it off like ths........ i can jus telll ur gonna say now, 'imagine we say this face to face'..haha.......and tht u hav to b ther for ur gf cuz she doesn hav anyone else...........i wish i cud tell tell u .....i dnt have anyone else here either...i onli ever had u and thts gone too..... but still, thank u for everythin nhan,,even if u continue ur silence and ignore me, u gave me sum realli realli gud memories and atleast for the first 3 weeks u did care so thank u for tht......im sorry for everythhing too tho, if i hurt u here cuz im sure i did.......but more thn anythng, whut i liked abt u was tht u were honest..i wnted to b honest too..u do still mean alot of me ,whether u laugh ths off or not....... enough crap for one day......i can promise u ths is mi last email,,,last time i was too angry and too hurt to realli say much..............jus take care of ureself okay,,,,and as always,dnt worry too much abt me..ill take sum time bt hopefulli, will b fine........stay happy, and do tell me wen u take over the world one day, okay? or u rank 1st in ur acm thng............ lots and lots of love, farida
to which he replied,
Dear Fareeda,
Last weekend, I went to buy a Buddha shirt and planed to show it off to you today. Unfortunately, it was cold and you looked down and away. So, I figured you would not like to see ever again. Hence, I moved to another tutorial to avoid that you have to see me. // I am not so smart after all.
It might be good for you to know that I am not very good at keeping a distance from the one I like. Therefore, you might want to hate me a bit more before we get back to be friends or classmates.
Good for you, buying all the stuff. And, don't mess up when I am not there, okay? // Donair lecture!
This is clearly not your fault and it is my fault. I do not know why I would say that we were going out. For that, I Am sorry!!!
If you see any other option for me, please, do tell. Because I do not see one.
I have spent quite a bit of time to think carefully about this before I wrote you my last email. First, it might hurt you more if we do not break it off now because of your religion. You know I am not planning to convert to Muslim, Buddhism is fine. Second, I would not like to see you rebel or lie to your parents. Third, bad things does happen to Pakistan girls who does not follow THE RULES.
Yes, I alway have to work and I am also awake of this "Time Demand" conflict. You know if you want to work out something, such as, relationship problems, a lot of time, passion and dedication are required. In my life optimization, I do not have these resource available at the moment.
I solve problem in my free time, remember?
It is good that you are brave enough to say it. I was not. I hope you feel better now.
Ha ha, I might cry if we said this "face to face" !!!
A good friend once told me that people are like segments. We meet in some intervals then move our own ways. Believe it or not, he is a teller at a bank and nowhere close to be a nerd of any definition. Most importantly, we should forgive all mistakes and treasure the memories.
I remember that you alway there to say it is okay. That was very nice of you. For now, I have to be there for my girlfriend and each time I say "it is okay", I think of you.
Thank you for your wishes.
Once again, I think it through while I write this email.
Conclusion: Yes, we did get too close. Hence, I will maintain a distance from you.
Kind regards,
patrick
FIRST .............SHITTTTTTTTTTTTTT I jus wrote a whole post and the whole thng vanisheddddddd.............arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
gtta do it all againnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn
so anyways, uff i read ths email and obv cried and felt like crap,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,didn see him on wednesday so thts okay....on thursday i ddin hav class but i went to uni ianyways cuz ezra asked me if we could study togther and i said aite..so we met up and ended up laughin more thn studyin ,,,haha......he was so red too poor thng cuz he didn sleep wel and he cud keep his eeys open...ezra goes red when hes either tired or blushin..accordin to armie i shud enter him int the tomato look alike contest ..NO ii DONT like him, and NO it wasn a study date..jeeez, if i went to study with einstien again if he became alive, wud u call tht a study date?u wud? right..u two are perverted and immaturre..hahahahha....hahaha...so aywaays, we went to lunch and on the way we met sum on mi hijabi frnds who thnk u cannot b caught walkin with a guy...so it was lil awkward..afterwards ezzraasked me whud im gnna tell them for bein with a guy, i said ill tellem i was doin the work of God by converting u..haha.. iwas teasing of course...he said ' i hav a better idea' thn he starts walkin lyk an old deformed guy with hs umbrella stick,,and says' u can tell em ur hanging out with handicapped ppl to make em feel normal...hahaha''''' so lo and behold, who walks towards us but thse hijabans again and i had sucha hard time convincing him to act normal and walk straight..haha..no sandy and armie i still DONT like him ..okay?tho i thnk armie does,,hahahha....thn he started tellin me abt this one time when he was out in publicwith sum of his very self conscious frnds ..he started teasing this guy ,sayin tht he was gay with him..and the gu yand a acupla gurls were like 'stop stop' one of em was his crush too,whse a GURL dnt worry..so anyways , wht he does is, ( he demonstrated on me ) grabs the guys hand, interlocks the fingers, raises it in the air like two peopel doin a V for Victory sign and then screams, WE'RE GAY! obv at this point he was holdin mi hand in the air and we were in public but THANK god he didn scream we're gay ths time,,but i jus burst out laughin..it was SO embaraasin and sooooooooooo funni too.hahahaha
so neways thn that weekend i went camping with mi aunts family..we went to this place 3 hours away called Manning Park near a city called Hope.,,yes Hope.no, there was no Faith and Happiness arround tho tthd b weird.............it was ok,,we went to a a beautiful lake in the middle of a valley ad su waterfalls hudden in the middle of a mountain..it was gorgeous.i saw gophers too for the first time in mi life...kinda like a cross btween a squirrel and a hamster...reminded me of sandy, cuz they were hyper and small,,,and armie,,cuz they looked wise and didn make a lot of sound.and rima, cuz they had ths naughty lil i-know-sumthin-u-dont-know-look in their eyes...hahahah..i MISS UUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU all...i mean HELLO gophers remind me of u..theyre practicalli rats..i look for u guys in rats,,B proud,,,B vvv proud....of havin SUCHA a thoughtful frnd.....................hahhahha
on monday i saw patrick in class,,,he was sitttin high up in the middle of a bunch of guys so it was hard to spot him..it was miles away frm wher we sat.yeh it hurt...it hurt in the camping trip too alot.and oh yh during campin i had no net for 4 days!!!!!! can u IMAGINE...poor deprived lil me..im SO sueing Hope,,,for hope-less-ing Me...hahah...whut the hell did i jus say? hahahahah
but neways, tueesday was mi ultra long english exam....which went okay..i think....
on wednesday , i had had enuf of patrick..haha......i discussed with a lot of ppl who said u guys dnt need to b complete strangers jus cuz of whut happened...u cn still b frnds and so on...so i wanted to talk to him...wise choice or not, i dunt knw.......so i txtxed him in class to meet me for lunch..he called and since mi phone wasnt on silent, it rang like in the middle of the prof goin on abt sumthin imp.haha..the class laughed..i wanted to die..haha...i closed the call...thn once class was over i called back..he sounded realli realli down..said hed nt been coming to uni cuz hes been feelin down and had a crappy weekend..i said why, but i knew the reason..i said 'problems with ur gf'' he said yh....iand he said ' he cudn hav lunch with me, cuz we were distractin each other''i said lsn i dnt want whutever back with u bt this is crazy, us acting like strangers,,and i wont distract u...''but i was out of credit..so i had to close the fone soon after,,,and i guess it IS right this way...i can say that now..finalli...................i felt a lil hurt bt more worried tho..cuz yes at tht point i still cared tht he was goin thru a rough timel..it doesn realli matter now.......
afterwards,i waited for philosophy tutorial in ths open lounge close to class which is all carpeted so u can sleep ir jsu eat or hang round ther...ths guy frm tutorial passed,,hes SO HOOTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT and hes frm the filipines too,,yay armieeeee,haha,,i get so tongue tied whenever he talks to me..arghhhhh..NOT deliberately..hes jus so smart alec with whut he says im jsu like er....hahah..it was okay ths time..he sat next to me and we talked abt the xam..he said i wudn b satisfied until i got like a 98....hes like u always ask questions in phil so it looks like u knw whut ur talkin abt,,i told him i ask questions because i DONT knw whut the hell we're talkin abt..the other person who asks is ezra,,bt hes SUCHA nerd i swear.he loos cute and lost and thn gets like 90s ad all and goes all modest abt it...haha..its so irritatinnnnnnnnnn.......
then whut..oh i complained abt eco..haha..cuz he asked me i looked beat..
first abt eco.i got 53 on mi midtemr xam..yes, me..hahah...i was SO upset,,turned out sum part of the paper is marked by a machine and it read mi marks rong so it didn read all mi answers..i need to talk to prof abt it and IF he agrees, ill get a 70...IF...i hope he does..the onli other way the mark can b cancelled is if i get a 90 in mi eco final paper/...yh, in mi Dreamssss,,,,,,,,,,,,,bti was SO SO SO pissed at miself and evryone was like this is uni,u hav 600 ppl in ur clas bt stil 50 effin 3?????.arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
so anyways,,,,,,,,,,,,,hot fili guy and me talked abt Gribov too, shes our teacher..she Lways goes round in circles rather than talkin straight,,,shes fmr Israel and has the cutesttttttttttttttt egyptian accent.but we all call her Greebo,,i do atleast..haha...............anyways thn ezra came and sat with us and bianca..we wwent to class....and obv, me and ezra, but mostly ezra bombarded Greebo with questions..and ofcourse she went into ths thng which had nuthin to do with whut we were supposed to b talkin abt,,,hot-fili-guy-with-no-name loked at me and smiled..cuz greebo was in her own lil world again, and ezra was jus egging her on..i was gnna burst out laughin but greebo wudve prolli kicked me out...
anywaysssss,,,,ont thursday we had the phil thng..its not a big deal cuz its like onli 10%of our total mark....
thnnnnn whut..........hmmmoh i discovered Chizzat too,,on face book,,its an application which loads a chat room and u can talk to people.and for the first time, ive got like 12 guys tellin me im gf material and their Ideall....i sound liek RT..okay wait lemme explainnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn..all mi life ive been bulllied for bein ugly and never gotten attention for beauty..i tell miself it does namtter bt heck, honestly, lookin gud to others matters to everyone..so wenthese guys tell me ur cute or whutever , i wave it off cuz i knw theyre lying,,,,bt still,,,if enuf ppl say it u knw tht u knw, i dont look THAT bad after all...still bad yes, but not THAT bad............everyone likes to b flattered, admit it ..hahah..im so despoooooooooooooooo......anyways,,outta all the guys i met, theres 3 worth mentioning
first up is norman.............one day in the chat rom we were talkin abt our wildest secrets..so its normans turn..and this is whut he says
' one night i got realli drunk..and woke up next morning...with mi pants down....next to a cow..and i wondered, WHY a cow? thn i thought,,heck, im gtting 4 titties? on one thng? thts a good package deall that is.''''
THAT was gross..but hilarioussssssssssssssssssssssssssss,,it reminded me of sandy and me hidin in the closet when rt made all the head board banging noise with MO..rmemebr sandy????? in physicssssss..god we were so perverted....hahahah
second guy is paull......alotta guys tell me ur pretty bt theyre normal abt it..this one is the ur-the-ONE-for-ME diehard romantic poet.........so obv whut he did was write me a poem.........here it goes....
patrick
FIRST .............SHITTTTTTTTTTTTTT I jus wrote a whole post and the whole thng vanisheddddddd.............arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
gtta do it all againnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn
so anyways, uff i read ths email and obv cried and felt like crap,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,didn see him on wednesday so thts okay....on thursday i ddin hav class but i went to uni ianyways cuz ezra asked me if we could study togther and i said aite..so we met up and ended up laughin more thn studyin ,,,haha......he was so red too poor thng cuz he didn sleep wel and he cud keep his eeys open...ezra goes red when hes either tired or blushin..accordin to armie i shud enter him int the tomato look alike contest ..NO ii DONT like him, and NO it wasn a study date..jeeez, if i went to study with einstien again if he became alive, wud u call tht a study date?u wud? right..u two are perverted and immaturre..hahahahha....hahaha...so aywaays, we went to lunch and on the way we met sum on mi hijabi frnds who thnk u cannot b caught walkin with a guy...so it was lil awkward..afterwards ezzraasked me whud im gnna tell them for bein with a guy, i said ill tellem i was doin the work of God by converting u..haha.. iwas teasing of course...he said ' i hav a better idea' thn he starts walkin lyk an old deformed guy with hs umbrella stick,,and says' u can tell em ur hanging out with handicapped ppl to make em feel normal...hahaha''''' so lo and behold, who walks towards us but thse hijabans again and i had sucha hard time convincing him to act normal and walk straight..haha..no sandy and armie i still DONT like him ..okay?tho i thnk armie does,,hahahha....thn he started tellin me abt this one time when he was out in publicwith sum of his very self conscious frnds ..he started teasing this guy ,sayin tht he was gay with him..and the gu yand a acupla gurls were like 'stop stop' one of em was his crush too,whse a GURL dnt worry..so anyways , wht he does is, ( he demonstrated on me ) grabs the guys hand, interlocks the fingers, raises it in the air like two peopel doin a V for Victory sign and then screams, WE'RE GAY! obv at this point he was holdin mi hand in the air and we were in public but THANK god he didn scream we're gay ths time,,but i jus burst out laughin..it was SO embaraasin and sooooooooooo funni too.hahahaha
so neways thn that weekend i went camping with mi aunts family..we went to this place 3 hours away called Manning Park near a city called Hope.,,yes Hope.no, there was no Faith and Happiness arround tho tthd b weird.............it was ok,,we went to a a beautiful lake in the middle of a valley ad su waterfalls hudden in the middle of a mountain..it was gorgeous.i saw gophers too for the first time in mi life...kinda like a cross btween a squirrel and a hamster...reminded me of sandy, cuz they were hyper and small,,,and armie,,cuz they looked wise and didn make a lot of sound.and rima, cuz they had ths naughty lil i-know-sumthin-u-dont-know-look in their eyes...hahahah..i MISS UUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU all...i mean HELLO gophers remind me of u..theyre practicalli rats..i look for u guys in rats,,B proud,,,B vvv proud....of havin SUCHA a thoughtful frnd.....................hahhahha
on monday i saw patrick in class,,,he was sitttin high up in the middle of a bunch of guys so it was hard to spot him..it was miles away frm wher we sat.yeh it hurt...it hurt in the camping trip too alot.and oh yh during campin i had no net for 4 days!!!!!! can u IMAGINE...poor deprived lil me..im SO sueing Hope,,,for hope-less-ing Me...hahah...whut the hell did i jus say? hahahahah
but neways, tueesday was mi ultra long english exam....which went okay..i think....
on wednesday , i had had enuf of patrick..haha......i discussed with a lot of ppl who said u guys dnt need to b complete strangers jus cuz of whut happened...u cn still b frnds and so on...so i wanted to talk to him...wise choice or not, i dunt knw.......so i txtxed him in class to meet me for lunch..he called and since mi phone wasnt on silent, it rang like in the middle of the prof goin on abt sumthin imp.haha..the class laughed..i wanted to die..haha...i closed the call...thn once class was over i called back..he sounded realli realli down..said hed nt been coming to uni cuz hes been feelin down and had a crappy weekend..i said why, but i knew the reason..i said 'problems with ur gf'' he said yh....iand he said ' he cudn hav lunch with me, cuz we were distractin each other''i said lsn i dnt want whutever back with u bt this is crazy, us acting like strangers,,and i wont distract u...''but i was out of credit..so i had to close the fone soon after,,,and i guess it IS right this way...i can say that now..finalli...................i felt a lil hurt bt more worried tho..cuz yes at tht point i still cared tht he was goin thru a rough timel..it doesn realli matter now.......
afterwards,i waited for philosophy tutorial in ths open lounge close to class which is all carpeted so u can sleep ir jsu eat or hang round ther...ths guy frm tutorial passed,,hes SO HOOTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT and hes frm the filipines too,,yay armieeeee,haha,,i get so tongue tied whenever he talks to me..arghhhhh..NOT deliberately..hes jus so smart alec with whut he says im jsu like er....hahah..it was okay ths time..he sat next to me and we talked abt the xam..he said i wudn b satisfied until i got like a 98....hes like u always ask questions in phil so it looks like u knw whut ur talkin abt,,i told him i ask questions because i DONT knw whut the hell we're talkin abt..the other person who asks is ezra,,bt hes SUCHA nerd i swear.he loos cute and lost and thn gets like 90s ad all and goes all modest abt it...haha..its so irritatinnnnnnnnnn.......
then whut..oh i complained abt eco..haha..cuz he asked me i looked beat..
first abt eco.i got 53 on mi midtemr xam..yes, me..hahah...i was SO upset,,turned out sum part of the paper is marked by a machine and it read mi marks rong so it didn read all mi answers..i need to talk to prof abt it and IF he agrees, ill get a 70...IF...i hope he does..the onli other way the mark can b cancelled is if i get a 90 in mi eco final paper/...yh, in mi Dreamssss,,,,,,,,,,,,,bti was SO SO SO pissed at miself and evryone was like this is uni,u hav 600 ppl in ur clas bt stil 50 effin 3?????.arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
so anyways,,,,,,,,,,,,,hot fili guy and me talked abt Gribov too, shes our teacher..she Lways goes round in circles rather than talkin straight,,,shes fmr Israel and has the cutesttttttttttttttt egyptian accent.but we all call her Greebo,,i do atleast..haha...............anyways thn ezra came and sat with us and bianca..we wwent to class....and obv, me and ezra, but mostly ezra bombarded Greebo with questions..and ofcourse she went into ths thng which had nuthin to do with whut we were supposed to b talkin abt,,,hot-fili-guy-with-no-name loked at me and smiled..cuz greebo was in her own lil world again, and ezra was jus egging her on..i was gnna burst out laughin but greebo wudve prolli kicked me out...
anywaysssss,,,,ont thursday we had the phil thng..its not a big deal cuz its like onli 10%of our total mark....
thnnnnn whut..........hmmmoh i discovered Chizzat too,,on face book,,its an application which loads a chat room and u can talk to people.and for the first time, ive got like 12 guys tellin me im gf material and their Ideall....i sound liek RT..okay wait lemme explainnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn..all mi life ive been bulllied for bein ugly and never gotten attention for beauty..i tell miself it does namtter bt heck, honestly, lookin gud to others matters to everyone..so wenthese guys tell me ur cute or whutever , i wave it off cuz i knw theyre lying,,,,bt still,,,if enuf ppl say it u knw tht u knw, i dont look THAT bad after all...still bad yes, but not THAT bad............everyone likes to b flattered, admit it ..hahah..im so despoooooooooooooooo......anyways,,outta all the guys i met, theres 3 worth mentioning
first up is norman.............one day in the chat rom we were talkin abt our wildest secrets..so its normans turn..and this is whut he says
' one night i got realli drunk..and woke up next morning...with mi pants down....next to a cow..and i wondered, WHY a cow? thn i thought,,heck, im gtting 4 titties? on one thng? thts a good package deall that is.''''
THAT was gross..but hilarioussssssssssssssssssssssssssss,,it reminded me of sandy and me hidin in the closet when rt made all the head board banging noise with MO..rmemebr sandy????? in physicssssss..god we were so perverted....hahahah
second guy is paull......alotta guys tell me ur pretty bt theyre normal abt it..this one is the ur-the-ONE-for-ME diehard romantic poet.........so obv whut he did was write me a poem.........here it goes....
fix on the beauty u possess
it is like a charm so strong can't let lose
pretty u r so perfectly made
out of the finest gold,
u make the world stand still
with ur charmin beauty
u desired to be call queen princess
and the goddess of attraction
but all she could say is,
"am not that pretty"
but saying that only adds
more to the attraction
stay pretty girl
and i read it..and i wwas like..wthhhhhhhhhh..haha..it made me laugh.....cuz it sounded so...Not me u knw..so goeey and mushy..so anywas i was in uni wen iread this and next to ezra i thnk..he read it ..and he burts out laughin, then he redid the whole thng romeo style for me,,,,,with alot of exaggerrated eyelash batting and clutching his heart............it was soooooooooooooooooooooooo funni.....thn ezras like u HAVE to convince him to send u more................u jus made mi day with ths poem fareeda, u have to make hi msend u more..it is playing with the guys feelings yeh bt paul knw im nt serious..anyways..next night, pauls online, ezras online..ezra and me hav a deal,,if he adds chizzat i add ths stupid pets application hes into...so he adds chizzat and me and paul and ez talk together..and ezras eggin him on.btw paul knew ez is mi frnd...it went sumthin like ths
ez-ive been hearing thngs abt u and fareeda
paul-realli? like what?
me-shut the eff up ez
ez-heard u guys are tight and all..
paul-realli? :D
me-sheeeeeeeesh
i was liek shahaha...thn ezra convinces paul to 'write her a poem or ill write her one' and they hav a competition to do it..obv paul wanted to impress , so next thng u knw, next day i have 2 POEMS in mi inbox...................i emailed ez immediately tht his plan worked bt anyways, heres the next two installments on mi' queen-ness' hhahahahhaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
she comes with two different faces.
the appearances of the two speaks,
of a goddess split in to two.
A princess with mutiple attractions
each picture defines a distinct beauty
an ability to captivate every eye
the sun welcome it and the moon worships it,
i was lucky to see three parts
out of a thousands beauty
i sit close and stare at her
seeking words to write,
not seems perfect to come up
oh! she his so splendid
like the morning star
the appearances of the two speaks,
of a goddess split in to two.
A princess with mutiple attractions
each picture defines a distinct beauty
an ability to captivate every eye
the sun welcome it and the moon worships it,
i was lucky to see three parts
out of a thousands beauty
i sit close and stare at her
seeking words to write,
not seems perfect to come up
oh! she his so splendid
like the morning star
4 comments:
thankx eida i was really worried !!!!! well atleast i know how r u!i really missed ya it's okay i know it doesn't feel right dat jerk i am sorry eida!!! but he really is .i am so happy u stood 4 ur self.
and yes i am so happy u didn't scream in da middle of da road and say i am gay i mean imagine lol!!!!!
but i am so pissed at u coz of ur studies,i am so dissapionted i don't mean to put ya down but dis is mot me eida 53? u were supposed to take 90 or something now if i was so dear to u and u really care 4 me promise me dat i will see a 90 something in da final paper and don't say it's hard or something okay just grab ur books and say i can do it!!!! promise me........ now!!!!!! and i neva wanna c ya cry 4 such a jerk he doesn't deserve ur tears !!!!!
as 4 da poems plz make dem compete more i mean how would dat feel all ur emails poems lol IMAGINE!!!!!
and yes i do think u like erza!!! okay i now u wanna hit me but u can't lol hehe !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
and yep eida u didn't turn into an rt or somethin u r just da same okay
and one more thing farida u r so beautiful , okay and i do't mean da inside beauty (and i don't mean u r ugly inside eitherlol) outside u really got da looks okay i mean man u r so really beautiful look at ur self in da mirror and don't try to look 4 flaws look at ur selfand u will really c how beautiful( shit i feel like a guy talkin to his gf lol haha hehe(da is a big laugh))
okay really happy dat u rote i am really omg u know and eida how could u remember me wid a rat emmmmmmm take a hammer ansd smash it to ur head u really made me day i miss u so muchhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
and to cheer ya up i want ya to watch the vedio below okay it is so funny yes i am in a good mood http://youtube.com/watch?v=wts-dntnyh4
ooo...its longgg...lol...(eww eww)...hvnt read ur blog yet...but will in tym okie...xx
hehe...nice blog..even tho i was dead tired...i jus had to read it...
yeh well i dunno if i shud repeat everythin that ive told u...but nah ur no slut...dun worry...kya thats really stupid of u to even say....
ok...n..errr...oh..i wuv u okie...
sandy ur such a sweetheart...i read ur comment n i kinda felt nice my self..i dunno y.haha..cuz calmed me down..haha..
n wats wid d "naughty lil i-know-sumthin-u-dont-know-look in their eyes"????,,,,i dnt hv that look in my eyes....?...or do i...haha..
nyways...its nice that u put up this blog...i hv a blog too...except..theres nothin on it..haha...cudnt be bothered to write..cuz i c u guys online nyways..n tell u everythin...so yeh..no point nah?..haha...xx
hey sandyyyyyy..haha i knw u worry u lil..er...dont worry so much abt me okay????? and i REALLI REALLI missed u..........and yh thngs went rong but he wasnt a jerk sandy..he was an undecided ..er....idiot...hahaha....
and yeh i didn scream im gay i dont think i wudve but with ezra u can never tell.....and yes sandra u ARE VERY DEAR to me and all but i cannot get a higher grade..im starting to realize that this isnt high school with just 30 kids in one class out of which only 10 are clever.here its a class full of 600 or 700 students who have atleast a 100 clever students.....and nah he wasnt a jerk sandy, thts why i cried..if he was a jerk i wudn hav cried........
and yes i knw i LURVEEEEEEA gtin poems...haha..now theres a guy shourav whse writin me one..hahahah..its SO FUNNI..but cute too.....
and no i dont like ezra..again..sigh..I DONT...okay..no atttraction nuthingg..hes jus a great guy who cracks me up and reminds me of u cuz u made me laught too...thts all.......and THNK GOD i didnt turn into rt,id hate it if that happened...
anddddddddddddd oooooh sandys mi bf now..I WISH..hahaha....sandy i dunno abt me bein beautiful inside or outside..i cnt change the way i think about me tho i AM trying too......and wen i see the mirror i see a brown gurl with tanned oily skin and a million acne on her forhead and deep dark circles round her eyes cuz she hasnt been sleeping ............and a HUGE tilted nose too....
and yes u make me miss u too sandy..jsu by answerin..cuz it shows u care no matter whutttttttttt.......awwwwww,,ima CRY nowwwwwwwwww..hahaha..i miss u sweethearttttttt.......
rima, i know u JUS HAD TO READ it....ofcourse ur as despo for me as i am for u..ur jus gin thru denial syndrome..itll pass huney..SOON..i KNOW IT...hahaha
and thnk u for tellin me im not a slut..makes me feel like im not all THATTTTTTT boy obsessed.hahaha...
and yh sandys advice calmed me down too..sumtimes u need a gurl to tell u ur beautiful more thn a guy..cuz gurls dnt lie like tht, theyd get nuthin out of it...except if they were lesbian......
and yh rima, u hav a VERY mysterious look abt u..........i thnk thts whut attracts all the guys..the i-wanna-know-too thng..
NAHEEE U HAVE A BLOGGGGGGG? wher the hell is it..and u shud write because it relieves stress, u cn b jus a lil more open abt thngs like hating ureself and so on,,and its wayyyyyy easier thn waiting for each of u to turn up and tell u separately...and rrepitions a bore...except wen ur repeating tht u guys miss me or love me..haha..i cud NEVER get over thth...bwahahahhaha...
and yeh i do MISS U AND LOVE U TWO..VERY MUCH....hahaha
muah muah muah hug hug hug muah....
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