the good and the bad............

for every bad thng in life, there is sum act which always balances it out....so ive been goin on and on abt the bad thngs in life recently , bt today i picked up on many tiny lil thngs tht made me happyy....ad i wanted to list em down.....
first ....the bad...patrick didn talk to me for long today...ran into him aftr the midterm, he asked how the paper was, and ran...i was hurt..wrote him a long email afterwards tellin him whut he was doin was rong...yes i stood up fr miself...lolz....
now ..the good.........
1) ez walked me to class today...hahaha...for the first time...said he cudn believe he was doin it either....hahaha....
2)there was an adorableeeeeeeeeeeeeee baby on the skytrain today with the cutest blue eyes and the most sweet laugh ive ever heard..every single person in tht train had their eyes on her,..she was cute and small and innocent and soooo........happy.............pure free happiness......its so damn contagious i swear......makes u all happy too........
3)i went shoppin to metrotown today to get mi shoes...as i was about to enter i saw ths guy hold the door open for 3 diff ladies to pass, the last one was an old lady with crutches who took hours passing..i thought tht was cute...but what was cuter was, once in, he opened the door from the inside again to make sure all the ladies behind him passed too..i was like WOAH..and he wasn nerdy lookin either..he was a realli hot, well dressed asian,and how many times does tht happen..i thought onli nerds did tht..and onli one way too..but both ways? and he OBV has a gf ,i mean gurls wud die to get a guy liek tht,,,unless theyre of sum wacko kind and go lookin for bad boi types......nudge hint armie.......,i saw his gf when i entered, she was waitin for him inside...then they held hands,........no, i wasn jealous,,,yes i did think of patrick, no i didn cry..arghhhhhhhhh....hahah...but tht act touched me right to the core..to know chivalry of tht kind still existed......
4) on the way back i entered the train and it was cramped, so i remained standing,an old man by the door immediately got up to gimme his seat..and he was pretty old too and all bundled up..but because i had mi ipod on full blast i cudn here whut he said, but he kept on saying sumthin to me and motioning to the seat..by the time i got the damn headphones off, he was askin me for the 20th time, are u sure ur okay.standing..u can have this seat..mi stops about to come soon....i assured him it was fine ...BUT what was again sweeter was how he got up way before his stop was gonna come, motioned for me to get the seat, and held onto it for me until i sat down..i was so so soooooooo touched..thngs like tht dont happen..esp not by white old guys to indian looking gurls in scarves....ive gotten too pessimistic.....tht old man in all his coats and hats and all touched me like no other...not physicalli u idiots...i mayb loneli but not THAT desperate...............haha.. but.i realised kindness and so on existed...it touched mi heart.......

so, with ths reassuring thought in mind, ima end now knwin tht hey, lifes not all bad..whut goes round comes round, if im good to ppl mayb itll rub off on me one day.....hahaha.....
ps.....i missed pat today too.............wen writin the email to him i started cryin ..AGAIN..but stopped miself in time....whut the hell is rong with me? why cnt i get over ths jerk..........arghhhhhhhh
pps...eco midterm was okay...ill survive at least
pps..i love rainy days................

all for nowwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww
me me me.....