A brief candle; both ends burning
An endless mile; a bus wheel turning
A friend to share the lonesome times
A handshake and a sip of wine
So say it loud and let it ring
We are all a part of everything
The future, present and the past
Fly on proud bird
You're free at last
-Charles Daniels.

photo credits- Embrace by Alistersvperstar.

This blog for all those who'd kill me if i didn't blog within the next two days.
*ehem marina cough ehem neelo cough cough*

ahaha.i love u two.
o, and i love conversations bordering on the sexually inappropriate that often spring out of the mundane things. like chocolate.
*ehem chun chun ehem*
-for more details look into the 45 comments on the blog post below-

which reminds me, the one time i do a blog post about the most twisted stuff in my head i get 45 comments (albeit the fact that half of them were mine)
mhmmmmmmm.....me thinks we need more of those.

following is a compilation proving that brown aunties= major desperados LOOKING to get u hitched.

1, ' picture time'
aunty- oh beta picture khichwa lo.
me- haha yeah phir ammi ko bhejon gi.
aunti-kis kis ki ammi ko? kaun hay jus ki ammi ko tsveer bhejwa rahee ho?
me- O.o

old aunty- mujhay to eeda ke sath tasveer khichwanee hai.
me-aha sure!
old aunty afterwards to khala-
mein woh india ja rahee hoon na novemeber mein. woh tum eeda aur meri tasveer mujhay zroor forward ker dana.
*evil plan a-hatching*
me-O.o

me- ahan mera bachon wala glass kahan hai shazia aunty?
aunty-tum abhee bachi ho?
me- Yupppp
aunty- kuch nahee hota.. jo bhee tumhay le jaey ga na woh tumhay bara ker day ga.
*knowing look*
me-O.o

-me arranging chairs for the aunties-
aunty-haey, jo bhi tumhay le jaen gay bohot lucky hon gay, bohot kaam kerti ho.
me-O.o


yeh. it was kinda sorta very extremely sad.
i don't think they could probably digest the fact that i was still single and hadn't started shooting out babies like an automatic machine gun yet.
Disastroussssssssss...


so. hm. with drug gone camping for three days, i had a little lack of things to keep me occupied.
-understatement-
so i hung out with ze khala.
and ze family.

it was all good until she started hinting at the whole 'ammi ko bta doonnnn gee' na na na na..
i was pissed.
and frankly at my wits end.
nadir bhaiyu PERFECT timining to call, i YELLED..not just yelled i BELLOWED it out..to the point that i'd give paki politicias a run for their money when it comes to throat-ripping rants.
so yeah, noone was home, and i yelled it out, then subsided into an emo ive-had-enuf crying mess.
i know. it was icky weird. its SO not my thing.
i was thinking about that afterwards too.
-eeda ur gettin TOOH emo-

kher. that helped a lot.
he in turn yelled at me saying tht id become her slave and i need to u knw, lern to stand up and say no ..tht she was disrespecting me as a human and that was not allowed in any culture religion so on..
he's a wise guy i know.

kher. hmm..sunday was the long eid party as discussed earlier. reason to get dressed up and all prettied out, which is weird cuz i haven't done that for a while.
too much of a tomboy i know. aha which reminds me,

-on the fone-
drug-can u PLEASE be scared of SOMETHING?
me-nup
him-spiders?
me-no.
him-lizards?
me-not at all.
him- ARGH
me-why does it matter?!
him-i'm a GUY.i have to be able to protect you from SOMETHING.
me-*snort snort*

yes ew i knw.
but so yes got all dressed up. bling blue chunri suit and all that.
shazia aunty- u know ur childish look has gone and u look..complete-er.
yes shazia aunty that makes a wholeeeeee lot of sense.
yes its because u might hav forgotten but i just put my contacts and my dentures back in, which is why i looked complete-er.

hokayyyyy.so.
all's well that ends on a rainbow somewhere with butterflies.
i dont see no butterflies...yet.

me thinks i've hit a good solid desicion.atleast im not so painfully undecided anymore..i think?
i do like him. but not enuf to marry him. i think so.. our differences have been getting painfully glaring lately, and its making me think.
re-think.
point 1. ull never get anyone without flaws.
point 2. ud always mentioned these differences and that we should stop but i waved them aside.
point 3. if i end now il safely join the ranks of being one of the biggest bitches on this planet, considering u told ALL ur friends this weekend about how serious u were about me.
point 4. i'ma do a Golf on u. he did the EXACT same thing to me.

it's so wrong.

i don't want to let go but i have to.
emo much? yes i know.

don't u feel like ur reading the chronicles of the excruciatingly dramatic brown girl?

New York, I love you
But you're bringing me down.
-LCD Soundsystem.

hm.
the weather's been just perfect lately.
u all knw my definition of perfect (windy rainy grey clouds blah di blah) so no 500 word mini novelette on the issue.

i'm thinking i should write something midly profound to atleast end on the blog on a slightly intellectual note, but i'm at a loss for words.
for once.
Ha, eeda. aisa bhi hota hai.

it's my deeju's bday tomorow. i haven't been there for her bday for the last 3 years.
yes i know. it breaks my heart.
she reminds me every time.

there is no place in this world i'd rather be jaan, than have you clinging onto my back liek a koala cub and have you breathing into the back of my neck and whispering quietly,' i love you appi'
like you always did.

The time has come for us to part.

Jaanu it's okay. i still have a little corner in my heart where i still keep the little deeju curled up like u used to be. i still remember your smiles and ur magical hugs that were my cure for any pain inthe world.
and u know that when you go hiding under the table, i'll always come to wipe your tears away and pull you out.

i really wish she doesn't forget that.
or ever feel alone.

all those 'aye kash' things..

im rimble rumble rambling.
so ima go.

note to self, put up paragraph from Kendra's book.

and to all of youse ladies, thankz-youse for following me blogs..for checkingz up, for cheeringz up, fr making me smile.

awh maaaaaan. TOOH much emo.
pith-oooooooeeeeee


i have looked inside your eyes and fallen.
swum
on your irises to your heart.
i saw some faint grooves there, where
my fingers
would fit in perfectly like
a lock and key like
you and me.

i will heal you.


haah xo for now
-eeda.