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And in the dark, there shall be a ray of hope..

well, again ...i dunno whut id do without friends..and family..lolz....bigggggggg thanks to rima and armie for lsnin patiently and worryingg..to arthie who cant read this but i mus mention, for calling...makin me laugh the way i used to with u guys in high schooll..freeeee.....tth if we'd laugh long and hard enuf, the pain wud go away.....obv me and her talked abt ridiculous things, stupid things...but funni enuf to make me collapse on the floor out of breath.....i was happy...

and well yeh, now its official.i AM in love with patrick.hahaha....i promised miself i wudn and i denied it ..but i do care alot for him....and i dunno whther he cares,,but he does..atleast a little...and thts enuf....and he makes me happyyyyyy.....
ok stop it u guysssssssssssssss!!!!!!!!!!!if i blush anymore theyll b selling me at the green grocers as some form of hybrid human tomato...lolzzzz..
.well, even tho i dint realli think about him all day..we chatted a while ago, andddddddddddddddd welllllll..he asked me for dinner tomoro..im all :)...and i conivinced mi dad to giv mi curfew a break....and he agreed!!! the onliiii problem now is the final approval frm mi aunt...but itll b all gudddd...
and yes yes heres the convo....




fareedasiddiqui: its not a joke
destinationgoal: I know
fareedasiddiqui: hah...
fareedasiddiqui: u dnt...cuz if u did..ud hav a diff reply..
fareedasiddiqui: forget it
fareedasiddiqui: ill see abt the counsellor.....
fareedasiddiqui: hello
fareedasiddiqui: did i go and offend u again
destinationgoal: Thang and Luong are showing off clothes
destinationgoal: they called me out for a sec
fareedasiddiqui: oh...
destinationgoal: sorry about that
fareedasiddiqui: its ok
destinationgoal: I really don't get what you meant there
destinationgoal: why can't you explain what is wrong ?
fareedasiddiqui: because too much is rong..and i dont know if ud even want to listen
destinationgoal: I can read :)
destinationgoal: if not listen :)
fareedasiddiqui: haha.....
destinationgoal: hey
fareedasiddiqui: hmm...
destinationgoal: tomorrow is probably our meeting for a long time
destinationgoal: could I take you out for dinner ?
fareedasiddiqui: id love to....
fareedasiddiqui: ur forgettin i hav curfew
fareedasiddiqui: bt i wudve loved too
destinationgoal: I will buy you lunch then
fareedasiddiqui: i appreciate that very much nhan..
fareedasiddiqui: r u free on friday? i cud spend pretty much the whole day till 7.
destinationgoal: nah
destinationgoal: I am booked until Aug 18
fareedasiddiqui: hahaha
fareedasiddiqui: booked ;;)?
destinationgoal: Friday = robot team meeting
fareedasiddiqui: ohh
fareedasiddiqui: its aite...
destinationgoal: August 12 : 5-7 pages essay
fareedasiddiqui: bloody curfew!!1
destinationgoal: August 14: macro econ
fareedasiddiqui: haha..its okkkkkkk patrick u dont need to tell me
destinationgoal: August 18: 10-12 pages paper
fareedasiddiqui: jeez ur busier than i am
destinationgoal: when are you leaving ?
fareedasiddiqui: 15th
fareedasiddiqui: if i get mi visa
destinationgoal: it is gonna be fine
fareedasiddiqui: i wish i cud say tht too..and itd b fine
fareedasiddiqui: its the other way round now...ur sayin it...hahaha

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destinationgoal: I will be in library
destinationgoal: then we can go for lunch
fareedasiddiqui: okay
fareedasiddiqui: nhan thanks for doing this
destinationgoal: and talk about stuff
fareedasiddiqui: yes...stuff.
destinationgoal: my pleasure
fareedasiddiqui: :)
destinationgoal: good night
fareedasiddiqui: u too...tho im sure we boh arent sleeping
fareedasiddiqui: any time soon
destinationgoal: I will be your good friend, remember ?
fareedasiddiqui: i dont :P
fareedasiddiqui: haha...
fareedasiddiqui: no,ur a very good friend
fareedasiddiqui: a very very good friend



ps....whut kind of friend buys u dinner? i dunno..im jus glad he thought abt it..friend or otherwise.....well, then i talked to dad,and i told him i needed to hang out with sum friends for a while...and he said OK!!!! lolz.. IF mi aunt agrees to tht ...well shes asleep now, and i havent yet told patrick the change of plans...but letseeeeeeeeee whut happens tomoro..either way we're havin linch tomoro and once more , this time downtown ,on the 14th before i leave.and he was fretting about not knowing whut restaurant to take me, said it was a big challenge ahead..hahah..hes so adorable..i shud stop liking him so much..lolz..
BUT IM HAPPY..thats the thing..i still havent talked to ammi,im probably gonna screw mi exam and not get mi visa in time but im still happy...i hope the feeling lasts till tomoro...

last words..thank u....from the bottomsssss of mi heart.........u pulled me out in ISM and u kept me sane....and ur doing it now when u shudn b cuz ur all busy with ur own lives and ur own problems.....and i cant ever thank u enuf for that..

pps...armie..go for m**K,,,,,,...he'll heall ur depression too..
bet rima has it too...
whut the hell has gotten into us.....hahahaha....
but 'baby, when i shine, u shine'
and we're gonna b okayyyyy,...jus u wait and seee..