And then..

i think that's what life is..a series of ''and then's..''...this happened then this happened then that and then and then and then and then full stop.

this for armie, ..'cuz well
a) she's the only person i know who really reads this aside from the random people who kinda randomly stumble across this and get dumbfounded ( by the sheer randomness and not the genius of it) and randomly leave....*
*my vocab's on sick-leave. again.
b) 'cuz she's the only one person who wants to know voluntarily what my 'ant then' is...where my story goes...its been three years since i last saw her, and u know whats absolutely funny, we've both been there thru the and-then's and the omg-no-way's....
hell YEA miracles happen..

so anywaysm my and-then for today is..well hm..
ezzie-no update..sent him a msg on facebook, text..nuthing...think ive realli pissed him off or rather us two have just become alienated from each other, which i know he absolutely HATED...i miss that kid, i hope he gets over the awkwardness soon and we hang out,.
roachie-let's not even go ther..guy PISSES me off...its next to impossible to have a serious decent conversation with him anymore. no miracles in that department.
and drug, i miss him a lot..we talk less since his schedule changed,,nd he sounds off and distant now...he's one of those people tho that u dont need to say anythin to bt ,,things get said?....
i dunno, i have a feeling this is liek the 'been there done that' him and me both keep talkin abt...will it fade too? i dunno..maybe with time. but will i forget? definitely not...i quote shams on this one because he was the one person i knew who was completely convinced of the fact' people come into ur life for a reaason, and when their purpose there is over, they leave. u learn the lesson, and move on'
its hard accepting that fact but ..hmm,,part of life.

at this point i sound SO much liek the mediocre kind of blogs u come across where people jus rambleee about the quote unquote 'menial details' of their lives. and it's blah realli..who'd want to know? u might as well watch a more tragic/emo/dramatic/controversial soap opera and have ur moments of O-no-she-didn't that way.

hmm..nexttttt up on the agenda is the daily epiphany..i told nadir this too and i think its sumthin i can apply to my life more and more lately...


think the text is a little too light,,..fix it when i get home..
its funny how we sumtimes let go of our dreams because reality steps in....me, i let go of reality sumtimes because a dream steps in...and yes thats stupid and feminine and idealistic, i havent been able to completly let go of that idealism yet but heck.. the first steps to remedying a flaw is recognizing it. so now that step one's over let's make a game plan.
just not yet =)

dreams make u happy. reality kills.
enuf emo for today, u can go de-emo ureself now. watch the news.
-eeda.