side-effect

i am a woman, and as far as i am remotely aware of the fact, i certainly appear so.
and yes because of the slight difference in gender u may have casually overlooked, i do have to buy things that cater to women.
its nothing out of the ordinay. ur mum uses it too. ur friggin sister too u creep.
so when u stand in line u stupid middle aged desi man, do NOT turn around and peer thru my stuff like im at customs at Heathrow. do not flinch away.do not give me ur silly little snicker. do not check me out from top to toe like im some half-dressed creature from Maxim.
SERIOUSLI.
friggin getting groceries and stuff is liek a pain in the butt. it wudnt be as bad if id been a man and been seen buying like a bra or something.jeez i AM a girl i buy girl stuff but evryone from the friggin brown cashiers to the brown people in line make it sucha huge oh mah gawd.
and its ALWAYS only the brown people.
and oh yeh im brown too, yes thank u for noticing. and yes thank u for also noticing that im independant enough to be going grocery shopping on my own not dying of mortification either.

-end rant-

yesterday was..odd...i couldn't for the life of me sleep till 4 am. think im too used to listening to drug's b.s elapsing into a calm silence before i myself can fall asleep..
restlessness does have its virtues tho, of sorts. i finally talked to Nad, who i havent spoken to in ages, which roughly amounts to two weeks. this is a big deal considering we used to talk at the very least 3 times every day and way into the night,. but i think he respected the fact that i didnt pounce on him for evading me like everyone else has been doing. he explained why he's been out, gave his little justifications...the implicit apology...i don't mind to be honest, u do whut u gotta do.

but its always the silent bystander that people eventually turn back to, because that is the one person who u know will always be there without complaint.

and i talked to my stalker again..interestingly emo chap. u know who u are.

and talked to armie. i was mad worried about her ever since i read her blog, but yeh, she ranted and i ranted and like always, it was all good again.shes one of those people that acts like a tough nut but is all marshmallow inside. i love marshmallows, if theyre not too sticky.
complicated metaphor intended.

i have a massive headache. its sleep+eyesight being messed up. if it's not the back it's something else.
and i have an anatomy exam tomorow.
let me rephrase that for sake of avoiding innuendos,
i have a strictly academic., written anatomy exam that ill do being fully clothed at all times.

She walks in beauty, like the night.
-Lord Byron.

random quote.
sabs is here, ima go study.
xo
-eeda.