longggggggggg day at uni

its mi very frst blog entry..and ths feels weird to say the least..hahahha...........................bt yeh,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,okay so mi day started okay-ish..........i woke at 6 , got ready ,went to uni..met up ezra of all ppl outside mi econ lecture hall...nice lil surprise ther,,,haha.....and yh agreed to meet him up for lunch later on..hes a nice guy and i realli like him,,,,,initialli i thought u knw mayb it cud b sumthin er......better..... bt next thng u knw, the guys tellin me all his past loves and crushes so tht broke dating-a-guy criteria No.1-thou shalt not date a guy who considers u his friend,,,,ofcourse theres other rules ive got bt yehl..too bad,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,anyways, once in eco i megt up with patrick....awesomly sweet brianiac kinda guy...hhahaha..hes adorable...and like hes gna thru a lot of crap like i hav,,,and i knw how ibadly it hurt me...i wish sumtimes i cud jus reach out and heal him but ths relationship is jus gttin started and i dunt wnna push it......anyways,,,,so yh he comes in at sits at the end of mi row and tht stung..cuz we we're meant to b friends here, hello??????? so i called him over and he sat next to me.,,and we ended up whisperin away,,,,,and oh yh theres jamal too.lebanese guy who i thought looked gay at first impression and tody he confirmed i was right-on..bwahahaha.....it went like this
me-what did u do over the weekend?
jam-got drunk
me-so typical of u..haha..umm
jam-yeh.and i watched 3 movies and read a book
me-woahhhh......atleast u had fun
jam-yeh..(pause) i met someone special (giggly smile)
me-oh....realli
jam-hes a nice guy
me-(thinking)WOAH...UH-OH....guy? okay..whutever makes u happy....haha....
to jam,thats great!
jam-yeh it is.......smile...
hahaha..freaky convo...i dunno, ive never realli met a complete gay guy before so it IS lil unnerving and helloooooooooooo he is a JAMAL and thts like muslim and he is an arab so yh tht wasa shock bcuz muslims aren gay..jus arent okay? dont fight with me on this one......anyways, so thn aftr class, me nd pat r joined by ths gurl called monica who needed help with her eco..so yh pat tries to explain to her n me and i get it and she doesn bt pat needed to go aftr a while to his cool,lil science buildidng..so he shows me where it is and i rush back to help moni then rush back to be with pat...pats a computer-science undergrad btw,,,graduating in the fall :(:(:(:(:(...but atleast hes goin to UBC which is closeby........anyways, so yh the science building is full of clever lookin ppl..i feel soooooooooooo intimidated,....hahhaa.............but i find his lab and guess whut, it needs a key to go on.jus like sum weird sci-fi flick..bt thnk god he sees me and opens the door..then he ends up workin on his assignmnet and im surfin rouund mi laptop..he shows me his blog page by signin in thru his yahoo cuz mi yahoo doesn wnna open his page for sum reason....hahaha.....so yh,,i read some of it,,hes got a vid frm youtube by chris rock on it....sumthin on relationships..hilariously funni..i watch sum then ezra calls, asks me for lunch...i say ill meeet him in 10 mins and tell pat i gtg...i cud kinda tell he had plans for us later on like last thursday when we had lunch togther but i already promised Ez...i feel awful bt tell him i gtg and will see his vid later..now hang on here, he gives me his yahoo password so i cn access it when i want...i was like WOAH,,,,is ths guy out of his mind.............he either realli trusts me or is totalli dumb!!!! u dnt giv ur passowrd out like tht,,,,,,,i wondered whther its like guys showin a sign of trust or sumthin...i dunno.........im like ohkay and hurry away...and for any guys readin this,,,pat asked me last weekend to go to grouse mountain with him..itsa bit of a hike upa mountain and a gorgeous view on top or so he says,,,but it was long walk and i had work so i refused.....and today he asks me if ive seen pirattes of the carib 3 yet,,,,,and i say no...and hes like yeh mi frnds hav watched it bt i haven so far...im like yh i dunt hav time....im usualli free thursdays bt cnt b bothered goin alone and dunno whr the good cinemas are.....he says he busy thursday then asks 'whut u don ths friday' im like nuthin 'hes like okay lets go and im like ill see' but i dunno,,,,,,,does ths count as a date? or is it jus him bein friendly....we hav discussed old loes and dating and all bt hes never realli formalli asked me out bt these two invitations..i dunno..ive onli known him 2 days and been asked out twice already..whut does tht mean??????? im so confused,,,,,,,,,,,,i dunno whut him to thnk im easy pie or nethin..and he did say hes single but his blog of 3 weeks ago thnks his girlfriend and ex gfs for wishin him on his bday....tht started me,,,,,i need to confirm ths with him bt still.....................with guys u cn nveer tel if theyre romanticalli nterestd in u or not.............
anyways,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,i am plannin to say yes for the movie friday bt haven said so to him..anyways,,,,,,,,,,,me and ez meet for lunch and talk abt random stuff..abt metrosexuals and bi's and how he ws kiddin abt him bein a bi but i caught him out on tht one...its good with him....i end up feelin like a klutz with him tho...like we were eating a lil piece of bread flew outta mi mouth..and he laughed and i was SOOOOOOO embarrased,,,,,,,,,,,,,,uffffffffffffff,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,, bt god,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,hes nice enuf...........and i like talkin to him...hes funni bt yh,,,shudnt get too involved here...thts a love story hunnies tht alread y has a big bad ending, in two syllables..THE END...hahahhaa.......................
so yh,,while with ez pat calls and asks me wher i am..i tell him im miles frm him bt i cn meet him in 10,hes like 4get it ill meet u at class later on..bt i go to meet him anyways and half runnin-half walkin reach ther to find him comin out of class,,,we walk to our next class together bt were like 3/4 of an hr early so we sit in a empty classroom and talk abt memories..good and bad and all...thts wher he asks me the movie question btw...and oh yh one of his frnd comes in and looks at him and says, 'now what are u doin here'' and with a veryyyyy suggestive look at me too.......i was worried,,,,did pat tell his frnd, dave, abt me? did pat normalli use gurls like tht ? was tht why dave had looked at me like that? i dunno....i was unnerved thts all....it may hav seemed like him and me were having a romantic tete-a-tete, but it was nuthing of the sort....he remained physicalli distant and quiet throughout,,i mean jeez, man ...,,jus,,it was bweird being hung like tht......hung like this i mean....i dunno whut he wants,,,,,,,,,,,,,
anyways,,,class was pretty crap aftr,...we had a surprise test and so on..i did okay i thnk...this dodo in class found out we're havin a test,fones her frnd and says ,, quite audibly,,'omgggggg were havin a test ..come quick!!! and we hav to give in our assignments/? are u coming/????????// whuts the answer to number 10????/' i jus had to stop miself frm burstin out laughin...haha
anyways,,,pat had to meet sum gurl fr his assignment next but she never showed so he decided to go home with me.....he lives 5 stations away from me by the sky train, and tht wher id first noticed him too.........
anyways,,,the trip in the bus was okay....we were quiet..i didn knw whut to say...............mi head hurt and i realli realli realli wanted to put mi head on his shoulder, but i didn..i attempted to make it clear tho, sayin mi head hurts and i wish i cud keep it sumwher but yh, they do say guys dnt get gurls hints anyway.......in the skytrain tho i did it..i told him mi head hurts so bad id prob fall asleep on his shoulder,,he ssaid i dont mind..im think ''phewwwwww....finalli dude''' put mi head down...and it was nice and comfortable....and yh..thn i closed mi eyes and realized two seconds later how rude i was being,,,i aapologized to him for not bein much company, but he said its okay,u need to relax................im touched..anyways the journey ends wayyyyyyyyyy too quick and mi station comes..i get off, waving at him..i wanted to giv him a hug or sumthin but i jus didn knw whut to do..neway..homes okay..mi aunts a real pain tho..i mean im livin with her nowadays while familys back home..bt yh..she makes it a pont to spy in mi wardrobe and sit on mi bed and read mi books without mi permission and hav a peekie or two at mi laptop to see whut im doin, who im talkin to..she ALWAYS asks if she can use mi laptop too and im like helloo, woman,,get ur own..and she searches around to chck too..like 2 mins ago she swiveled mi laptop around and chcked all the windows..im FURIOUS..hello, im 18,,,not 8...and im NOT her responisbilty beyond the food and the clothes,,but chckin who i talk to and whut i write..mi MUM didn do tht, well she did bt shes mi mum ..uffffffff,,,,,,,,,,,,,,i need to work this out and put miself in her shoes....anger wnt gemme anywher...anyways,, wayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy too much time spent on this blog....gtta go and study nowwwwwww.............
lovez for now..............
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