Mi day today in numbers...................
Day 2 blogging
Day 1 gettin to know bianca
Day 1 seeing a graduating ceremony
Day god-knows-whut in feelin cold!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Hahaha...today was a HAAPY day..u know some days are happy days and sum are sad days and so on....today was that kinda day that even though it was rainy and all, i was in a ultra happy mood..i dunno why...i loveeeeeeeeeeeeeee the rain , i guess thts the reason..
So anyway i ‘bounced’ off to uni today and guess who i see at the bus...Bianca!!!! haha..she got on a few stops aftr mine,,,and she opened up alil today,,,i mean usualli in tutorail shes so quiet..but she wasnt today..and i swear she looks so much like Armie.its freaky....she has the same cute innocence,same knowing-ness of the wrold, same child-like streak in her..not immature but childlike,,like me....i felt glad!!!!!!!! Okay, ecstatic!!!!!!!! Tht i found soeone close to home..anyways,,, we talked all the way to phil and found out ,among other things, that we’’re both addicted to facebook.....hahha...so we headed for the computer library and i chcked mi facebook and say shif had oooheddddddd and aaaheddddddd over mi pics ther..hahaha..and dearest ol’ rima had divorced me..:(:LLL....haha..i miss rima so much...she was the most perfectest frnd i had,,,,,,,,,,,i wish she was here to experience all these thngs with me ..the same gossips, wowrrying over guys, enjoying the weather,, being cold and huddling up to be a lil warm..hahaha..so yh anyways,,,i go into phil with bianca at mi heels..i sat next to ezra, as always and bianca sat by mis side and OBV i was busy chatting to both of thm and OBV mi tutorial assitant sittin in front had to turn every 2 minutes to glare at me but still, i had the bestttttttt phil lecture so far..and thts sayin sumthin...and horrible horban was on about some totalli random and scientific thng today tht had nuthing to do with phil..i think it was abt how ears work and where sound is or sumthin..hahahah...i soo completly tuned out..anywaysssssss bianca thought ezras name was isaac,,hahah..i told her she mus realli like nerdy guys then,,u know,,,isaac ‘’newton’’ and some ‘’albert’’ einstein and Socrates!!hahaha..she laughed..socrates is this name we hav for ths random pain-in-the-butt guy in phil tutorial......hes in my group for an argument where we prove libertarianism but he keeps saying thts wrong thts wrong..i mean HELLO,, we agree its wrong but for the assignmnet we hav to prove it right..aghhhhh..anyways ,ezzie came up with the socrates title for him so..haha..bianca thinks hes pretty annoyin too..anywaysssssssssssssss,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,it was good talkin abt completly random stuff with bianca,,jus like old days..haha..how ezra had ‘confessed’’ his bi-ness....hahaha...he’s such a liar...............and how we kept teasin him abt it..anyways aftr class,bianca had to go usmwher so iended up walkin with ezra and tommy again.....tommys nice..in a very quiet way..lolz....wanna-be-cool way..hahaha..i obv gt on better with ezra bt yeh i dnt mind tommy.....he plays along with ezra tho, u knw they do their guy thng...hitting each other on the arm and so on...so yh...chatting with them was fun..we talked abt movies and guess whut their favourite movie is,,NOT armagaddon or sum other random action flick ,, but ,,,,atten-wait-for-this-tion!!!! Its a WALK TO REMEMBER...hahahahah..wen they told me i burst out laughin and im like its a gurlsssss movie..so tommys like we’re not robots , and ezras like we have feelings too and i cudve realli realli screwed him up on tht one bt yh....i let it go..,,,being generous me as always!!!1hahahha..... and oh yh which reminds me, we were tlking about icecream and taste bud sensations in phil and for sum thng or the other, prof ‘horrible’ horban goes,, ‘uhummmm,,its yummie and u can lick it up all around’ or sumthin..and i swear it was SO hard for me to keep a straight face ,,i mean EWWWWWWWWWWW...uff.hahaha....tht shud TOTAALI go into the ‘its not mi fault that whut u said can be miscontructed as a sexual innuendo’ group on facebook..hahahha....so yh, thn tommy had to run away some wher and i walkked ezzie to class..AGAIN..hahaha..we were discussin how NON chivalrous he is and how i cover up for him..haaha..i remmeber in the first few days i met him he waswearin a teeshirt and shorts and it was FREEZING outdside and i hada spare jacket and i offered it to him but obv i mean gurls wearin guys jackets is cute but guys wearin gurls jackets is jus..WRONG...ahaha...trust me , this is another one of those things that u dont wnna argue with me about.....anyways, and jus yesterday, ez was complainin abt not havin an umbrella and him having to walk back home in the rain and i offered him mine but he said no..so yeh he brings it up today, abt how im bein the ‘guy’ heree...hahahah..tht was funni...he did say he wasnt chivalorous and i was like yeh patrick is REALLI REALLI chivalorous like tht..like holding the door open for gurls and buyin me lunch....and ezra was like, wait,,’this is the first time uwere out on a lunch with him and he bought U lunch’’and im like ‘yeh’ but apparently it turns ut that here, if u buy a gurl her lunch, u like her,,and if u let her buy it ,,its more of a frnds thng..so yh,....hahahaha....i dunno, its weird like tht..i mean i was talkin to tommy (not ezras frnd, my gylc tommy in england) and he said mayb i shud double triple check abt pat havin a gf or not and yh im havin msgivings abt tht..i WONT let anyone use me as second-best pie or as easy cake....haha..notice mi bakery skills here....hahaha..........anywayssssss,,,,i hav econ tomrow so ill srt it out with pat......yh....anyways,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,oh yh i hav phil tutorial tomorow too so that shud b ...i dunnoo..it depends on whut grade i get on the phil assignment i took HOURSSSSSSSSSS doing..anyways,,,and oh yh I HATE MARLENE SWATSKY...........hahah..shes mi english prof and its not like i realli hate her or anything but tht woman is a work-maniiac...i mean i jus gave in 6 assiggnments today and now next thng u knw, i have like 15 morew for next week... NOT FAIR,,but then again, liffe seldom is.......fair i mean....
Soooooooooooooooooo yhhhhhhhhhhhh..whut else..english class was okay...marelene like ppl workin in pairs so im teamed up with tina ..shes nice enuf..i mean shes not brilliant and she is kinda bossy and –will-have-mi-own-way kinda person bt im okay with it........i mean the onli person i got on well with is glenda, but shes older thn me and has kinda started to ignore me in class or am i bein paranoid again? Anyways, shes like third year so i get tina..
Andddddddddddddddddddddd,,well yh today was grad day at sfu...and lookin at all tht mess of blue and red robes and happy parents and bouquets and all, i kinda got hit with this feeling u knw.......like thts how its gna be for me aftr 4 yrs..provided i graduate frm sfu....letsee whut happenes..........itll b SO WRONG transferin to ubc now..i mean i like the way sfus smaller and more social and even tho papa is pushin me too ubci dunt wnna start all over again......and more thn that the further frm home the better it is..and i wnna see life and uni mi own way...khalloo,thts mi uncle,,knws too mani ppl at ubc and too many thngs nd stuff cuz hes studied ther but i dnt wna be leadin their rules and stuff..so yh...i like sfu, and ill try mi best not to move or budge or attempt any kind of transitional thng between the two,,,
Hmmmmmmmmmmmmm..whut else......................lifes goin on okay..yesterday i downloaded some old hindi songs frm a website for mi ipod....brought on old old memories..i sound like 80 here...hahaha...bt yh..good times man,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,lifes passed so fast and i can say this with great satisfaction , i did the best i cud...i used to hav ths guilt within me for a alot of wrog thngs tht happened tht u knw, if i tried i cudve dealt with it , i cudve made it better and all tht pretence abt me strong and happy was well to mask the fact that i was afraid...i guess i still am afraid now bt i am much stronger,,i can deal with stuff and lookin back, i can say well yh a lot of shit happened to me..esp wen i was growin up and iwas a kidd and i dnt wnna gt into details here bt its taken me a lot of time to com to terms with it and deal with the hurt and ive started the healing..ive started thinkin back and not being afraid of whut i might find in mi memory, i remember all the very bad days and accept it now,,what happened happened,,,,,,,,,,,,and i did the best i cud...i mean i waas a kid for heavens sake...but anyways,,,i still turned out alright...and sane..so yh im proud of miself for battling thru...it seemed so hard at the time bt its okay now....and for everyone readin this theyll b like whut the hell is she talkin about?why all the sudden emotional goo? But yh,,im not prepared enuf to write it publicly...yet...hahahahahhaa...so yhh,maybe more later....................in the meantime lemme learn to b okay again....................hahaha
So hmm,.hths enuf for today i think...more tomrow on how evrything goes..letsee and keep yer fingers crossed...i know mine are.....and toes are too by the way..............hahahha
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