the After

so yeh,, after the adventure hahah,, was the long BORING old weekend.....i had a lot of work to do, for midterms coming up and assignments and whut not, BUT in the path of mi so called 'noble and er..wise'' intentions was...Facebook....and hotmail,,,yes....those bloody,treacherous lil..er.....Traitors....hahah....honestly im gettin So addicted to them its not even funni...hahhaa...i need (internet) rehab..........i mean, hey, it IS the Paris Hilton/Spears/Lohan generation after all,,,so i HAVE to pick up sumthing from them.... :)hahahah

hmm..well on the weekend we, aunt's family and me that is, went to richmond center,,,it was okay....bought a couple of bead necklaces,,,,got a whole lecture aftrwards frm mum ,'STOP buyin jewellery....'' thts another one of mi obsessions btw, aftr books,music,facebook and msn....more will be added later....no, Patrick is not on the list....neither is ezra,,,or for those who know him, jasem.....thts an old story......and no, im NOT lying,,,,,,,,Glareeeee....hahaaa...

so i chatted with anas,luby,and rima ,,,,,,tht was a lot of fun..reminded me of my more immature days and ways..hahaha.....we talked about evrything frm whut colour bras they like their gurls to wear.........(i mean Ew....seriously? who gives a damn??????apart frm the (slutty?!?!?) girl in question) it was mostly anas talkin abt that stuff tho,,big surprise.......haha...we discussed bio classees and Obviously, no philosophical discussion regarding perversion and other things of that ewwwyyy-nature is ever complete without suomone mentioning Adel....atleast once....hahah...
he was again one of those weird weird people ive met in life....in class he'd be all suave,and cool...out on the streets, cuz he lived close to mi home, he'd be nice and polite to me....hed help alia bully me wen she was in one of her -lemme-claw-the-eyes-out-of-this-here-poor-thng (tht poor thng Always sumhow being me,..) but Adel always used to apologise for it afterwards.....he was a wacko like that....and yeh i miss him...and thse days.............

anddddddddddddd back to the point, i chatted with Ezra...haha....i swear hes one guy i so totalli get along with..like how i Used to get along with Anas,,once upon a time.....we used to talk abt anything and evrything., frm sandra bullock to relationships to family values to bein a rebel to new found ineterest in everything of the opposite gendar cuz of beiin a teen now.......it was so............comfortable with him...haha..tths how it is with ez,,,thts the best thng........i talked abt all kinds of random stuff with him,,,,mayb a lil rated er....R,haha pg-16 or sumthin,,,hahaha.....but it was comfortable and i swear he's SO adorable in tht he's so old-school abt a lot of thngs,,,,,,,,like guys shudn talk abt their ,,wen-im-loneli-in-the-night-i (do so on and so on...).....experiences......im sorry i cnt use the word here, itd be too disgusting me reading over it all later ..(like wth was i thinkin writin that on a public online place.....WAIT, whut the hell AM i thinking?) hahahha,,,,,,so yeh,,hes not chivalorous, but hes kind and Sweet and i-dnt-fall-for-girl-with-big-assets so to speak....even tho im sure he does...i mean heck, all guys do okay...for any gurl readin this, i can SEE u nod....any guys readin this, DONT bother saying wtf,,cuz its true and u know it....hahha..

so yh...............lifes goin on....today i went to uni super early cuz the prof had said it wud b an imp lecture...start of class, this delivery guy comes in with a HUGE bouquet of roses,,,and i do mean HUGE,,,,,,all nicely done..gives to prof,...i meant not TO the prof cuz thatd jus b gay, but to the prof to pass it on to whoever its for...,prof writes the name of the gurl its meant for on the wall.....(bad luck,,it aint me...hahaha...like i give a damn..how embarrasing!!!! ).....we wait,,girl comes down all a-blushing and takes the roses away...anddddddddd its the SECOND time its happened..anddddddddddddd its not even Vals day!!!! whoever said ppl dnt get wacko ideas from romantic movies was a big fat jerk and didnt knw whut the hell he was talkin about..( in that case, said person wud be ME as i belive nothin romantic can ever happen in real life..love and all is just Bull-you-know-whut..) but well we hav 2 examples right there!!! freaky.......

i mean its not true love though okay...,,i mean its whut we believe how true love shud be like,,,,,,all roses and choclate hearts and confetti and stupid cupids and the titanic theme song....well, HELLOOOO, slap slap!!! life aint like that okay!!!! ...wake up,..the amount of people tht 'love' happens to is like 3% of the whole entire world...AND thats wen i exaggerate it.......yeh, anyways enuf of me and mi pessimistic outlook on life and love...........BUT ITS STILL TRUE...another thng u dont wanna argue with me about,.....

patrick comes into class,sits a seat away frm me...i get pissed,i mean seriousli DUDE....wen we're on the bus or at the movies u sit in the next seat and in class ur miles away...JERK....gr..anyways in the break between, i ended up scootin over,,NOT because i wanted to or anythin, im too proud for tht hahaha,,i mean hello, i may look like crap and be completly nerdy or whutevr BUT i had do have SOME dignity...i mean ever heard of GURL POWER????? paki pride???/hahah....

nah its jus we had to discuss some math problem we were meant to solve for economics...but anyways,,,afterwards we did our assignmnets togther,,went to the CornerStone Mall to have lunch..i had a donair and he, a pizza and i made as a mess of it..as always..i mean NOONE can have that huge donair without making a mess okay..in that respect i think i did pretty okay.........id certainly get an A for effort ..so thts okay..........

thennnn we walked back, sat in an empty classroom,,discuss past loves/relationships/his work/weight and why i dont give a shit abt bein thin or not and he gives a shit abt not bein so thin...dnt geme wrong, hes not fat or anythin..sheesh the man goes walkin up a mmountain which is a 1 hour walk atleast TWICE a week..... haha...

anyways........he told me he was delaying his grad cuz his parents said theyd separate at the end of his grad, so he had been putting it off,,but the time had come...i asked him how he felt abt it and he jus shrugged it off but i cud tell he felt pretty bad..i mean who wudnt,, u knw?u cud tell by how he looked away..i swear parents can b soo bad sumtimes..........

anywayssss,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,the most important part is,, i DIDNT ask him where our relationship (if we have one) was goin, as tommy and dorothy and rima had asked me to do,,cuz obv i mean its SO damn confusing goin round in circles like this,,,BUT i dint wnna spoil whut we had, i mean have,,,by asking,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,so i didnt..but the other reason was,,,more importantly,,,,today wen i saw him or we talked i felt nuthin..no spark, nothing....jus a good-friends conversation and i realised i was bein a fool AGAIN for reading too much into it...so im going to let it go,...............,ive decided,,,,,,he'll jus always b a gud frnd and if he wants more, he'll ha to ask................

hmmmmm.........................mi horoscope on facebook was pretty damn true today....its abt me bein in a sticky situation and handling it like ive handled previous similar ones...okay, previous one, hm,,lemme remember ( calender shuffles pages backwards like in a horror movie..).....me and a guy stare at each other for 5 years ,,,and in the end, i run away evrytime...like a tragic indian movie heroine, goin 'Nooooooooooooooo!!!!!!!...'' haha..so whut did i lrn, DONT run away fmr ur problems and expect them to be like good children and stop fighting and sit and wait in a corner for you wen u cum back,, jus get up and er...SLAP them in the face,,,,,yeh.....i never knew id be soo cold....oh well, shit happens...Lifes a bitch....Thank u Shinkins for teachin me all that....rather than having life teach me that little by little....

mi fortune cookie said mi soul mate is sumone i already knw...HAHAH..yeh , who cud it possibly be???? theatrical sigh............hahah

so me and pat came home togther..i feel asleep on the bus afterwards tho, got off 3 stops too late, had to come back home by a different bus and was late by an hour..started working on some pretty long english assignments, called tina to check whther theyre bein graded or not, realise theyre not due till next week,,cursed miself,,felt light hearted,,OBV celebrated by facebookin' for the next 4 hours ANDDD thought abt doin mi phil assignment..prolli shud b doin that now..gud idea....haha

ohh, dad bought a Mercedes.....haha..can u imagine? MI DAD!!! hahaha..its a dark greenish black colour with a fridge and a cd player and got knws whut..hahah..im glad for them,i realli realli am..very jealous too, that i cant be ther to ride in it, and prolli wnt get it to see it till december, but im happy cuz whut with dad bein all stressed all the time, this is a nice change..he'll b happy for a while becuase of it...and mum and nijo and dj too...and mi mum WAS saying we're doin all the little thngs we can to be happy to help us feel less sad abt missin u all the time....that broke mi heart......but theyre good for now....... they'll b happy..and ill b fine........

enuf goeey shtuff,,to be FINE, i mus DO FINE (or preferabli....better than fine.....) in my assignments....startin NOW...so hahha....long long post......best b goinnnnnnnnnnn.............see all u lousy SUCKAHS whore (not whore or a slut ....but who ARE minus all the punctuaution to make the differnce between a pronoun and a hoe) botherin to read mi blog ,,,sheesh for a gurl who wears a scarf and has to exhibit piety at all times, im doin an EXCELLENT job, dont u think??????hahaha........thtts the thought for the day folks,,,,,,,,
love u all.......
me me me me ma ma muhummmmmmm........